AP: My parents enrolled me in the Suzuki violin program before I even had the presence of mind to know what was happening — it was two months before my 4th birthday! From then on, I was heavily involved in all the activities that the Suzuki program entailed. My father attended my weekly private lessons and made sure I always completed my daily practice sheet. I went to Saturday group classes for both the Suzuki repertoire and Newfoundland/Irish fiddling. I attended the Atlantic Canada Suzuki Institute at the end of June every year, and I couldn’t wait until school would finish because that meant it was time for summer music camp! When I was 10 years old, I joined the Suzuki junior chamber orchestra and subsequently moved on to the senior chamber orchestra.
When I was 12 years old, I was invited to audition for a job. I was chosen as a tourism ambassador and would perform Newfoundland fiddle tunes for tourists coming off cruise ships.
Through my teenage years, I went on to join my local youth orchestra and then the National Youth Orchestra of Canada. I formed a piano trio with some friends, and we played together every Friday afternoon until the end of high school. I could go on about my musical development. I didn’t even mention my piano studies or memberships in award-winning choirs, but you get the point. I have been immersed in a musical environment since I was 4 years old, and when it came time to apply for colleges, I couldn’t even imagine doing anything else.
Q: Did you ever face any scrutiny/sexism in your career as a musician? Was there ever a time when you thought you weren’t being taken as seriously as your male counterparts?
LM: When I was starting out in the freelance world in New York, there were definitely gigs and opportunities that I got not because of my playing, but because the employer wanted a female instrumentalist with a certain look. I sometimes got the feeling that my playing level was not important in those instances. However, as I’ve gotten older, I don’t often have that feeling anymore. I’m more confident in my experience and abilities.
SW: Yes. I’ve had leadership experiences where I’ve felt like I wasn’t being listened to or that my opinions weren’t as valuable. But the rise of empowered women is amazing, and I’m feeling a shift in the music world for sure.
AP: Actually, no. I can’t say that I have ever had this feeling per se. I will say that I have worked with a lot of male musicians who exert an air of superiority, but I don’t consider this to be gender specific.
Q: Do you feel freer in your career opportunities when working outside of larger orchestral groups? Is there a greater freedom for women outside of them?
LM: The answer to both of these questions is yes. I think many chamber musicians choose the more “precarious” (in terms of stability, job security, etc.) career path of chamber music because the tradeoff is worth it to them. In a small group, not only do you have the chance for your voice to be heard, but executing ideas big and small can happen so much more quickly.
Sybarite5 has been together with the same personnel for 10 years, and over that period, we’ve accomplished and evolved a great deal as a group, but we’ve also been able to pursue outside projects and groups, and to grow our individual careers, which in turn helps the group even more. I’ve never been part of an orchestra, so I can’t say for sure, but I’d imagine that pursuing such a wide range of projects outside of the main job would be significantly more difficult. And yes, going back to my comment about entrepreneurship, I think these “DIY” careers allow women to go for what they want immediately without waiting for that shift in the whole system to give them more opportunities.
SW: The beauty of being in a chamber group versus a large orchestra is that I’m the only one on my part. In an orchestra, you’re in a section of players, and the goal is to match and fit in with everyone around you. Since there’s no one else playing my part in Sybarite5, I get to make many more artistic decisions, which I love!
AP: Absolutely. Sybarite5 occupies about half of my time, and that allows me to pursue other projects and collaborations outside of the quintet. The thing that most distinguishes this type of career from an orchestra position is financial security. I can’t distinguish between the sexes here. Maintaining a quasi-freelance career requires an incredible amount of dedication and hard work. In addition to simply playing your instrument at the highest artistic level, there also is personal admin, scheduling, PR, artistic development, and on and on. It takes a confident individual to even attempt this type of career pastiche, and while they may face discrimination at some point, it is simply another of the many obstacles that they must overcome to pursue their passion.
Q: What advice would you have for young, aspiring female classical musicians?
LM: Put in the work. It doesn’t sound glamorous, and a lot of it isn’t. Yes, talent, ideas, and determination are great, but I think so much of success in this or any field is just about working really, really hard. Don’t think about approaching the work itself any differently because you’re a woman. Hard, focused work toward clear and reasoned goals—even when faced with setbacks and the inevitable instances of sexism — will pay off.
SW: Stay true to yourself. Don’t feel that you have to follow a certain career path or be a certain way because someone is telling you that you should. It can be very scary, but you will be much happier in the long run!
Q: Who are your favorite composers? What is your opinion on what seems to be the lack of contemporary female composers? Is there really a lack of new work being created by females, or is it instead that the work is just not being recognized and played in concert?
LM: My favorite composers are (Maurice) Ravel and (Johannes) Brahms. I find their chamber music particularly sublime. I wish I could say that some of my favorite composers are women, but unfortunately, I think we develop stronger attachments to music that we hear earlier in life, and for a very long time, female composers were seldom featured in classical music. That is starting to change now; within the last five years or so I’ve noticed organizations making more of an effort to get music by female composers heard, but there’s a long way to go. I hope it’s just the beginning of a surge toward equality that keeps gaining momentum, because there is so much incredible music being created by women. For example, Caroline Shaw’s emergence as a contemporary music superstar is an incredibly positive development, and we just need many more stories like hers.
AP: I have many favorite “classical” composers, but I have a major weakness for (Claude) Debussy’s piano music — maybe because as a string player it is an area of the repertoire that I never get to play (I am listening to Debussy as I compose these answers).
In terms of contemporary composers, I have too many favorites to mention. I am fortunate to have many friends who are composers, and whose music I love to perform and promote, that I couldn’t choose between them. Of course, there are fewer female composers, but there are significantly more now than there were when I was younger.
In my contemporary music world, there is no distinction between male and female composers. I’m sure this is due in part to the fact that I live in New York City, which is an incredibly diverse market with a breadth of composers and range of musical styles. Furthermore, I perform regularly with an ensemble that prides itself on performing brand new and high-quality compositions. Sybarite5 plays the music of several female composers, and it is because we genuinely love their pieces. If we can really connect with a composition and feel the need to share it with our audience, it doesn’t matter who the composer is!